So let's start with Surgery, why I'm going this route, and then maybe next time, I'll talk about Mexico.
I have settled on having the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy or VSG. Coming to this decision has not been easy for me. I worked so hard over the last two years (this time) to loose weight, and it's just not working. I loose some, gain it back, loose some more, gain some more... I'm tired of living this roller coaster, and I want to be healthier. I know that some people are going to judge me; tell me I took the easy way out. Well, if that's how you feel then stop reading... move on... judge someone else, because nothing you say is changing this. Oh... and it's not an easy way out... I can guarantee that. No one I know that has had the surgery has had an easy time. It's hard FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. Hell, diet is hard no matter how you deal with it.
So what is VSG? Well, they are basically going to do this to my stomach:
This isn't a sudden decision for me. I was actually approved for weight loss surgery about 13 years ago, but because my employer changed insurance company just two days after I got my approval letter, I was rejected. I have thought about the surgery over the years, and while I have never again had insurance that would approve me, I have always wondered where I would be today if I had been able to have the surgery back then.
One might think that I just sat around, not caring about my weight, hoping that someday I might get the surgery, but that is not the case. At least not for me. I have tried, and tried to lose weight over the years. I spent years in Weight Watchers, doing Atkins, Slim Fast, Calorie Restriction, Working out, and most recently, Paleo. I would be amiss in saying they were failures, I did have some success. As a matter of fact, I was at one point in my life 420lbs. I managed to get down to 254lbs, and then I just couldn't lose anymore. I gained again, starting just two years ago at 320lbs. I managed again to get down into the 250's, but stalled again. My body just does not want to get below that mark; or at least my mind doesn't.
I've had some people tell me the reason that I can't lose weight is because I am weak willed, that I eat too much junk food, that I must stuff myself constantly, but that's just not true. Granted, I like food, I like the occaisional sweet, and sometimes I just throw in the towel, but for the most part I try. EVERYDAY I try. My body fights against me constantly. I have PCOS which makes me infertile (fine with me, no kids happening at almost 40!), but it also makes it super easy to gain weight, and impossible to lose it. I am also very genetically inclined to be heavy. I love them all, but my whole family struggles with their weight. So, while this might not be a decision you would make, it's the right decision for me.
I'd love to have you follow me on this journey. I'd love to know your thoughts, good or bad. Oh! And, if you haven't noticed, I'm posting again! (Note previous post)